If you've been reading my blog, you know that I've experienced a lot of things since I've been here in the Pacific Northwest. Emotions ranging from relief to despair. Sometimes I still wake up feeling panicky or depressed, although it's generally momentary. Up until the last couple of weeks, I've felt just plain worn out, stuck in "overdrive", so I've been allowing myself to slow down, rest, and become grounded.
Lately, I've been smiling a lot, thinking, "I did it. I'm here." Well, that's worthy of big, big smiles. I've got a lot of things I still want to do before I check out, but if I died tomorrow, I could do it peacefully, knowing that I've done something very important by getting myself here. I've made the leap from one state of consciousness to another. This is something I've been working toward for a long, long time, and I'm on the other side of it now. I look around, and I'm in awe of what I see and where I am. I'm in awe of myself, actually.
With everything else I've been feeling, I've noticed something. I have not had one moment of homesickness since I've been here. That's pretty impressive. I'm no longer where I was, and less and less holding onto the past.
I'm here
now
looking towards the future,
whatever it may be.
It is a great feeling to live in the present - one day at the time. I can relate to it, even if it was difficult at first I am grateful for this ability. Buddha said:
"The Secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly"
Posted by: tysonwilliams | Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 09:34 AM
Tyson, thanks for posting. That statement by the Buddha pretty much says it all. We could get rid of all of our "spiritual books" and just use that as our guide.
Such trouble we humans have doing this, though. We fight like hell to avoid being in reality, seeing what is in front of us, in the present moment. It seems to me that we're at a point in human evolution where our survival demands we move beyond that way of living. "Grow or die", in other words. Not necessarily a bad thing ... I'd say it shows that the human race is ready to grow. Like the baby chick outgrowing the egg it's gestated in. If it tried to stay inside the shell, it would die.
Posted by: Kitty | Wednesday, February 08, 2006 at 04:22 PM
i am so happy you've found 'this' place
this: your blog
your new surroundings
your new feelings
your new state
enjoy the now
xo
Posted by: marlaine | Saturday, February 11, 2006 at 08:03 AM
Me, too, Marlaine. My new state in more ways than one. :) :)
Posted by: Kitty | Saturday, February 11, 2006 at 04:55 PM
Hi!
i arrived here from Tyson's cocomments & ironically his living in the present*
i was helped by Eckhart Tolle & his book The Power of Now*
so when i saw the word now*
;))
http://www.eckharttolle.com
Posted by: BillyWarhol | Sunday, May 21, 2006 at 09:16 PM
Thanks for stopping by! I've gotten a lot out of Eckhart Tolle's work, and have his CDs to listen to while driving.
Posted by: Kitty | Monday, May 22, 2006 at 01:59 PM